Bradley

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Tue, 23 Sep 2003 20:22:55 GMT

Well, I think I'm going to give this whole online journal thing a rest...

I just don't have the time (or the patience) to keep up with this...
I've had a very personal and enlightening past month and I want to leave you all with a quote from a dear hero of mine...

"Ever onward to victory, our freedom or death!
I embrace you with all my revolutionary fervor"
-Che Guevara

Oops....

Fri, 05 Sep 2003 15:08:02 GMT

I missed school today. My alarm didn't go off and my parents have surgery and were gone this morning. So here I am, wasting time.

I'm going over to Daria's house tonight with Skylar (and hopefully some other people) to watch Beavis and ButtHead. I'm pretty stoked.

Well, not much else going on, my mom's going to be upset when she gets back.

We Entered Winter Once Again

Wed, 03 Sep 2003 02:42:27 GMT

Damn, today was cold and rainy. It felt like November all over again. (for those of you not familiar with November's significance, It is generally thought of a a period of sadness and pain for my Allies and I).

I was going to go to Borders with Skylar and Morgan and buy "Guerrila Warfare" by Che Guevara today, but Skylar and Morgan got into a fight and... well, it got messy.
Man, that was one awkward ride home.

Speaking of Che, I got a new pic.
Hail to the Heroes of Revolution!

Choice is the problem.

Mon, 01 Sep 2003 16:11:15 GMT

I now have the kind of experience that people usually put in their journals- G_rl troubles. (or boy troubles, whichever.)

I went to Andi's party last night.
I knew that I always have had some sort of feelings for her, but I never could decide what, which was a pretty agonizing problem for her, since she's been in love with me this whole time. So, after I kissed her in the bathroom, I solidified some concrete emotion for her, and resolved to ask her out. I waited for the right moment, and asked.... well, there's a problem: She said she didn't know.

Crap...

Well, I asked why, and she told me about this guy she met and fell in love with over the summer and that she was confused about the whole issue. I told her I understood, and that only she can make the decision.

There is one vital factor I have in my favor: This guy's got a G_rlfriend.
Oh well, I'll hav to wait and be patient.
Ever so patient....
(Sigh)
Well, what else has been going on?
Hmm, I think I get paid today.

I get Bored....

Tue, 26 Aug 2003 21:38:26 GMT

Well, its been an interesting couple of days. I must say, Cigars are fun...

There is an Industrial/Synthpop/ect. show this Friday. Lots of dancing, I think I might try to take someone of the female persuasion with me. (I know, I'm a loser for such choice words)

I was with Jesus the other day, and he introduced me to the love of his life, Tatianna. She's a genius artist/painter and she was really sweet and down-to-earth. Something about her room made me feel really at-ease. (must have been the color-schemeing) They're not together right now because she's involved with some g_rl... But Jesus loves Tati, and Tati loves Jesus and... It'd make a great phone company commercial if only Jesus was white... Well, what can I say? Southwestern bell just doesn't like Mexicans.

Man, Jesus must have the patience of a saint. It blows my mind to think of what he has to go through everyday... I would probably go insane. Well, more insane than I already am right now.

The Begining of the End...

Fri, 15 Aug 2003 20:45:31 GMT

Well, the first two days of school were... not bad? I guess they weren't as terrible as everyone makes it all out to be.

I got my tickets today for the Overground festival. Man, this thing is going to rock, I can already tell. -Oh wait, I'm sophisticated now, I can't be saying "rock".

Uh... this weekend will be fabulous...?
Damn, Film festivals change people.

I hope work isn't busy so we can all just screw around and eat McNuggets all night. But then again, doesn't everyone want that?

With Jesus... not the Martyr.

Thu, 14 Aug 2003 02:56:59 GMT

Well, It's been awhile since I've been on the net... wonder what's been goin' down...

My "Links 234" single came in yesterday. I've been listening to it nonstop.

"If the clock tower strikes twice
He will fold his hands in prayer
He remains without a wife
So he must love his neightbour
Halleluja"

I've been trying to make this last week of summer vacation a good one, to make it last... but alas: First day of school tommorow. (snif)
I think I'm going to go to a film fesival this weekend, so that'll be fun. Lots of black and white films of cowboys eating pudding.

I'm working again, so I can actually start saving money now.

I met this chic the other day. Her name's Hayley (sp?) She painted my fingernails black and I had to remove it with carborator cleaner.

Summer is officially over.

And my nightmare begins...

Wed, 30 Jul 2003 07:19:16 GMT

Lindsay's gone? Forever? Will I ever see her again?

Man, everyone's moving... I'll have to find a new batch of L_sbians to hang out with.

I played in a Halo tournament, for those of you that don't already know. I played one and ONLY one round. The enemy team's name was "The Four Horsemen". Ours was "The Bricklayers".
I'll let you all deduce who got their asses kicked.
Oh well, I had fun anyway. (stupid college kids)

I stopped by Courtney's house last night, but everyone was asleep and I only got to talk to Nikki for 5 minutes. She wasn't drunk, but she was running out of beer, which is the natural indication that everyone needs to go home.

Band I recently looked into and found that's really cool: MegaHerz. Everyone needs to check- oh right... well, nevermind. Just, ah... forget I said anything.

The Four Horsemen Cometh

Sun, 27 Jul 2003 22:06:16 GMT

Well, last night was pretty fun... except for, well... several key aspects, which we won't go into.
But overall, drinking and sitting around downtown Tulsa is fun. Or maybe that was UPtown Tulsa?

I was feeling pretty creatively inclined but Troy felt the need to ditch me to hang out with someone else. So that hampered it... But why not go drinkin' to suppress and choke those creative thoughts and feelings instead of possibly lay the groundwork for more musical genious.

Man I hope I can work soon.

Mon, 21 Jul 2003 08:03:16 GMT

Do you need a boy/girl friend now?

...I just don't know anymore...

Sun, 20 Jul 2003 01:22:48 GMT

Hey... how about this?

My name's Sugar, 'cause I'm sweet and bad for you...

Sun, 20 Jul 2003 01:11:30 GMT

I'm going to rob a bank. I need guns, lots of guns. And dynamite. And lots of guns too. And don't forget the guns I need.

This familliar parabol...

Wed, 16 Jul 2003 08:14:56 GMT

I worked a bit tonight, get paid in... 2/3 hours (hopefully). I'll use most of this money for my new guitare.

Hey, I'm an artist- I'm spelling it the European way.

My hair is still a lovely flourescant color... It doesn't seem to want to come out.

Skylar wanted me to go with her and Nikki on a roadtrip to... well, I don't know where they were going, I don't even think they knew. Anyway, I would have loved to go with them; but I had to... wash my hair... yeah, that's right. Even if I had gone... what would have happened? More purring and finger nibbling? (that one was for you, Lindsay)

I'm gonna pierce my other ear pretty soon (I hope). I guess I won't be piercing it, technically... but we all know what I'm talking about.

Everyone's constantly changing their journal pictures, I'll go look for another one for mine

He can't help when he's happy he looks insane

Mon, 14 Jul 2003 12:40:33 GMT

It's about 7:30(am) and I haven't slept yet. What the hell is wrong with me?

Yesterday I went with Daniel to visit his mom in Venita. I've never really been there, with the exception of going to the world's largest McDonald's on numerous occasions.
It's a pretty ass-fuck little coutry town, and it was 5 in the morning when we decided to go. We had been working all night and felt like drving somewhere... so why not?

When we got there we went to his mom's and I met his Granny. After that we drove all over town visiting all his friends and blah, blah, blah. THEN we got a flat tire. Man that sucked sitting there in the sunlight, waiting for the damn mechanics to hurry up with the tires. When that was over with, we went back and met his mom. Dan took her to the store and back, carefully explaining to me that he'd be back in second. 4 hours later he got back. Another flat tire...

Well, the trip was filled with so many obscure and hilarious details that I won't possibly try to tell the whole story, but the short ending is- I only slept 4 hours in the past 28, so I should be dead-tired.

I hung out with Skylar a bit when I got back. She's got a guinnea pig now, very cute. I think she liked me qutie a bit, she kept purring and nibbling on my finger, (the pig, not Sky).

And... what else... Oh, I just watched a mobster flick with Bruce Willis in it. Man, can't go wrong with Brucey in a mob movie.

I guess I'll try to sleep now. Or not; can't decide yet.

Bring the Violence

Sat, 12 Jul 2003 22:07:21 GMT

Well, today has sucked so far, I burned my hand pretty damn good on the grill (bastards). And I gotta go clean in a half an hour, so I'll make this as non-bitchy as possible.

Suprise, suprise, Lachrymology isn't really a science. I mean, It's plausible theoretically but... no one's really accepted it so... And besides, nobody's found that damn book yet.

I had my hair colored the other day. The sideburns are kind of screwed up, but then again- I don't really have any sideburns, so it's not that big of a tragedy. It's kind of a salmon color when dry, and dark florescant red when wet. It looks pretty cool.

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 19:43:08 GMT

I found a much more fulfilling job than McDonald's: Cleaning office buildings at night. Last night I made $50 in two hours. So, I'll be doing that when I want some extra cash. I even get a kind of creepy "high" like a stalker gets, because I can see into people's personal lives just by glancing at their desks. Good stuff...

I went to see Thursday sunday night. They were okay, but one of the opening bands blew me away. So I bought their CD. Murd_r by De_th is their name, and they rock ass.

Sat, 28 Jun 2003 18:29:11 GMT

Well, I hung out with Cody for a while last night, which was pretty fun. I smoked a little with him, not much- but enough to make all of my thoughts hilarious. He wants to hang out with me again today, and when I told him I was going to be with Skylar today... well, needless to say, "We can all kick it together".

I haven't been sleeping much lately, that is, the past two days. (see previous journal entry.)

I'm listening to System of a Down. Man, I forgot how much I love this band.

There for the taking

Thu, 26 Jun 2003 18:15:13 GMT

Some of my family is coming to stay for the weekend. They arrive tonight, my Aunt and my cousin. Don't misunderstand, these are not any of my cool relatives; and they're staying in my room. (grumble)
Well, I work tonight at 5-9. Hopefully Preston will be there.

Skylar came by last night about 11:30 to get her stuff. I think we ended up talking for a really long time in the rain.

Hey Lyndsay... I miss you and Kristin, we need to hang out this weekend and eat dinner together again. Yeah, that would rule. S.S.Tw_t all the way.

Emptiness and Hatred

Mon, 23 Jun 2003 19:52:37 GMT

Well, today was bad. Today was just plain crap. Work was terrible- I got paid though, so next the round is on me, ladies...

I was going to help an old buddy of mine at his work yesterday, but he never showed up. I'm not sure what to make of that.

I'd say this whole weekend was pretty lame. It wasn't restorative or productive in the least. How depressing...

Brad's New Fix (out of context.)

Wed, 18 Jun 2003 19:47:22 GMT

I have a challenge for you all.

At the top of your screen in the "Livejournal" logo, there are several random phrases in the banner. One of the phrases reads, "Brad's new fix", I promise you.
Find it.

Nice eh?

Tue, 17 Jun 2003 00:49:45 GMT

Well, I've been really busy lately... (McDonald's is a harsh misrtess) I'm feeling kind of nostalgic right now.

Troy got back from NYC today, talked with him a little bit. He said coming back to Oklahoma didn't feel right. Man, LIVING in Ok doesn't feel right. How did that song go? "Have you ever been to the bible-belt? Tatoos aren't..." something, I can't remember the rest.

God, what loser one-hit wonder band wrote that one? Ha!

Check it out guys, phrase of the day, Fully Rely On God. (F.R.O.G.) I learned it at work today. It's the newest craze with the kids. FROG stuff everywere.

Wed, 11 Jun 2003 17:50:11 GMT

Well, yesterday I went to a black-metal show with Lyndsay, Kristin, and Ali-pants. It wasn't bad... I do however like to keep religion and music separate. And it's nice when a lead singer actually sings. I don't mind screaming at all really, it just gets old.

I've been listening to that Tool cd Tim gave me. Man that's some good stuff. Maynard's voice still gives me chills.

"Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity.
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate.
Desperate to control all and everything.
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen."

Apropriate, eh?

Waiting forever?

Mon, 09 Jun 2003 06:28:19 GMT

I'm not sure what to do with my life, I've realized today. I guess I've always suspected it, But today it hit me. And I don't even really care right now. I don't know why.

Things will work out. Everything will come together for me.
Yes, I will believe my lies, thank you.

I feel like I've been waiting my whole life for something. Something mind-altering, enlightening. I think I've always felt this way, but I can't remember first concieving the idea: to look for something better. I guess I got the seeds of it all from my father, but I'm not even sure of that.

I don't know why I stopped caring.
I don't know why I'm always sad.
I don't know what I'm going to find, or if I'll find it.

I want something huge. Someone who feels the same way I do.
Is it because of where I am? Should I leave, is that the problem?

I'm not even sure what I'm supposed to do anymore. I've got to try to get out of here, find my muse.

Thu, 05 Jun 2003 05:09:24 GMT

I have only one thing to say: "S.S. Twat."

Yes.

Mon, 02 Jun 2003 21:18:26 GMT

Wow, I am pi_sed. I feel let down in an entirely personal way.
-But don't let my complaining get in everyone's happy way.

I got my food-handler's permit today, and... yeah, well- Resturaunts can do some disgusting things to save money, let me tell you...